A night out

I went to the Star Trek movie for the second time last night. It was great. I get really involved in a movie. I let go of reality and I am just there. I shriek and squirm. (Yes, it is fun to sit next to me!) I really enjoyed myself.

My sister and I went to the movie together. We had a really nice time. We are over our previous stress over my refusal to be the responsible for taking my mother to the doctor.

My DH has taken the kids to the in-laws this weekend. I am getting a lot of me time this weekend. It is great! I hope you are having an equally nice weekend.

Adding Ads

I want to know about the etiquette of adding ads. I doubt that they will bring me big bucks, but is it vulgar okay? Lots of people do it. Do you? What do you think about it?

Awkward moment

I was doing a Mommy assisted event at my son's school and I ended up with one of those moments where you wish you could have done better. Here is what happened

Other Mom: Hi, I am X
Me: Hi, I'm __. Nice to meet you blah, blah, blah
Other Mom: Which child is yours?
Me: Oh, my child BB other there in the green. Which child is yours?
Other Mom: Oh, my daughter is little X.
Me: I don't know the girls. Which one is she?
Other Mom: Oh, there she is, over there in the red hat.
Me: Oh.

Now, the child she pointed to is of another race. Her father might be of that race or she might be adopted. I had one of those moments where I drew a blank. Maybe in my mind, I was ready to comment something like "She looks like you" or something like that. Instead I drew a blank and felt like a jerk. Sigh.

What should I have said? I suck at small talk.

Forgiveness

I read this in someone else's blog this week, but I lost the link. If you know who it is, please let me know.

'Forgiveness is giving up all hope of having had a better past.' by Anne Lamott

Wow that is a great one. The truth of this one is clear. I have been repeating it to myself all week. I hope that it helps you too.

Edited to add: Thanks for telling me. It was from Luna's blog.

Choices

Today I have been thinking about short term and long term decision making. I read this article in Macleans magazine "Addition: New research suggests it is a choice". and it fascinated me. It suggests that addiction is not a disease but instead is a problem in personal choice. The fault lies with choosing long term verses short term benefits on behaviors. I have no idea if he is correct, but the short term verses long term benefit on decisions is something that I struggle with for sure. We have all had that moment, the bowl of ice cream or fitting into those pants. (By the way, today I took the ice cream. You cannot bring home a new carton of ice cream without tasting it. What if it was bad?) Why is it so difficult? Is it cultural? I know I struggle with teaching this to my kids. Hmm.

A better day

I am in a better place today. I decided to accept that I was feeling bad. I went back and listened to some of Oprah's web casts and reminded myself about being present. It helped. Today I am back to feeling more present and more myself.

I also went out and bought a pair of size 10 pants. It was part of accepting that I have put on a few pounds. Yes, I am shallow and vain. I preferred being a size 6. I have no idea why I have put on the weight. It does not matter. What matters is eating right today and exercising today.

I have not done a recent update on my 101 things in 1001 days but I will try to soon. I have made good progress on my goals. I have also decided to change the way that I measure success. Some of my goals required counting how many times I did something and I going to ditch that. I want instead to look at whether or not something is in my routine. I am looking for behavioural change and not blind obedience.

I have to run and get my son from school. Have a nice day.

Blah.

I have been feeling down. I have been feeling fat. It is probably hormonal but everything has felt difficult and annoying. I hate to give in to a mood like that. I feel out of sync somehow. Everything is gritty. As Hamlet said "How weary, stale, flat and unprofitable. Seem to me all the uses of this world? "

Here I am with everything and yet if feels like nothing today. I am tired of feeling this way. I don't know what it is that I want. I am sick of myself. Is this restlessness?

Today, I suck.