Tuesday, August 26, 2008
The other night I was walking the dog and someone started to speach French to me. I babbled like an idiot. "Oh, the dog speaks French not me. I mean, he understands it, but I don't anymore." Walking the dog has been a real challenge. He wants to hunt squirrel and birds on the walk. A first this meant a 55 lb dog charging after his quarry. A real challenge to the upper arm strength. We have made good progress in that now he will just whimper and tug. I have also lost a few pounds as we do his morning walk at a brisk pace.
The rocky start was in part due to him knocking down my 2 year old. In the dogs defense, my son stood on his tail and hugged him. But it did result in 1 stitch for my son on his face. We almost got rid of the dog, but I think that our non-violent but assertive reaction convinced him that he is at the bottom of the pack. He has been fine since then and we have been more careful. I am embarrassed that it happened. I should have been more careful about establishing the pack hierarchy at the beginning. Of course, it is over now but it has been hard to let go of it.
I am off to bed now. Sleep well everyone.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Today I was standing in the shower having some negative thoughts about something that I did in the past that embarrassed me and suddenly I understood something new. I have been reading "A New Earth" and it talks about the pain body and how it likes to feed on negative experiences. I realized that those embarrassing actions were done by my pain body looking to create the negativity that it feeds on. "I" did not do those things. I, of course, am responsible for my actions. The "why" I did those things is because my ego needed to act that way. I can let go of those things because it is futile to remember the past and the "why" is answered.
I am working on accepting the present moment, but I am still identifying with my thoughts and feelings. It is hard to let go and live in the present. At least, right now it is.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
1. I don't really like chocolate. It is okay, but I get sick of it fast. I prefer dark chocolate to milk.
2. I think that sugar has a strong aftertaste and I don't like sweet desserts.
3. I can fall asleep mid-sentence, something which annoys my husband a lot. Especially since I start to make less sense as I drift off.
4. When under stress, I will talk in my sleep. One time I woke up my husband with "2X plus 2". I am such a nerd at heart.
5. Despite my lack of interest in sugary desserts, I could live on cookies, especially crunchy ones. And in keeping with my perve.rsity I often loose a pound or two if I go on a cookie binge. (You may curse me now, I understand.)
6. I have dog karma. Stray dogs will come to me and I have rescued many, including a wild dog.
If you are reading this, comment and then consider yourself tagged.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
I think that it was definitely true that I was not "friends with the present moment" at that moment. Hopefully there was no permanent scarring, for me if not for the mouse.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
I was driving past a local cemetery and they had a sign:
Celebrate Mother's Day
Sunday May 11th at 2 pm
Spectacular White Dove Release
I was, well, gob smacked would be the right word. I could not imagine attending this event. Am I alone here or is this odd? What are the appropriate "light refreshments" for a celebrations of this type?
Sunday, May 04, 2008
I have discovered that I am not reading some bloggers as much because I cannot be bothered clicking through. After all I then have a new tab opening that I will have to close later. I must be the laziest person on the planet. Am I alone on this one?
I removed items "1. Create this list" and "2. Do monthly updates" from the list accidentally.
|03. Clean the inside of my car (3/30)||In Progress|
|04. Drive 5 km/h slower to reduce emissions. Started this. Sorry for those of you who are behind me. I have also started Hypermiling as suggested by DoctorMama||In Progress|
|07. Write to my foster child in SA||In Progress|
|06. Write to my foster child in Africa||In Progress|
|05. Do work for a charity||In Progress|
|Family / Personal|
|14. Have my mother over once a month (3/34)||In Progress|
|12. Have a family outing once a month (3/34) We are doing better than that so far.||In Progress|
|13. Have more contact with my oldest sister. I have been working on this one.||In Progress|
|18. Update my medical alert bracelet||Completed on 05/04/2008|
|15. Make birthday dr appointments for boys||Completed on 03/27/2008|
|19. Wear makeup everyday for 2 weeks. I have been doing well on this and wear makeup more often.||Completed on 05/04/2008|
|08. Ask directly for what I want||In Progress|
|09. Believe||In Progress|
|10. Decide what to do with my frozen embryos||In Progress|
|17. Say “Please” more||In Progress|
|11. Get closure on evil Uncle K||In Progress|
|16. Plan fun things to do in the summer||In Progress|
|Food / House|
|36. Clean out 3 kitchen cupboards - 1 so far||In Progress|
|40. Follow cleaning schedule I have been doing well on this one. It is nice having a cleaner house.||In Progress|
|32. Bake once a week (6x so far)||In Progress|
|45. Learn how to bake the hearty bread that I like to eat. I have tried several recipes. I am still working on it.||In Progress|
|58. Stop using plastic grocery bags. I have a good collection of bags, and I am about 85% successful in remembering them.||In Progress|
|42. Get pda connected to new laptop. I have spent untold hours on this one and it is still failing.||In Progress|
|39. Finish configuring new laptop . Done!||Completed on 03/27/2008|
|41. Get dataloc for my laptop||Completed on 03/27/2008|
|37. Do a clothing purge. A lot of clothes are done. Yes!||Completed on 05/04/2008|
|57. Replace weatherstripping on front and side door||In Progress|
|52. Replace downstairs bathroom fan||In Progress|
|51. Rearrange laundry room||In Progress|
|47. Patch holes in family room wall. Started. Need to be sanded||In Progress|
|54. Replace Master bathroom fan||In Progress|
|59. Touch up paint in hallway||In Progress|
|44. Go back on cash only for a month||In Progress|
|43. Get rid of old VCR tapes||In Progress|
|35. Clean kitchen before bed 5x a week Hmm||In Progress|
|53. Replace downstairs toilet||In Progress|
|55. Replace Master toilet||In Progress|
|56. Replace toilets||In Progress|
|46. Paint deck||In Progress|
|49. Purge furnace room||In Progress|
|34. Eat more organic foods||In Progress|
|33. Create my own cookbook of things we like to eat.||In Progress|
|50. Put up whiteboard||In Progress|
|48. Purge desk||In Progress|
|38. Do more gardening||In Progress|
|02. Do a monthly list evaluation (2/34)||In Progress|
|01. Make this list ?||Completed on 03/25/2008|
|Health and Fitness|
|27. Go to bed before 11 at least 4x a week. I am definitely better on this one.||In Progress|
|21. Do months breast exam (0/34)||In Progress|
|28. ?||In Progress|
|20. Buy a new weight scale I have decided against this. The one that we have is consistent||Completed on 03/27/2008|
|29. Reorganize my weekly schedule||Completed on 05/04/2008|
|23. Drink more water I am trying!||In Progress|
|22. Do more yoga (2x week)||In Progress|
|30. Try pilates||In Progress|
|26. Go a week without sugar||In Progress|
|24. Get a massage once a month (2/34) YES!||In Progress|
|25. Get my eyebrows done 3x (1/3)||In Progress|
|31. Work on posture (stretch for 5 min every day) Not doing great on this one.||In Progress|
|63. Read book on parenting boys||In Progress|
|65. Sign up kids for swimming||In Progress|
|64. Read book on praising boys||In Progress|
|62. Potty train LB||In Progress|
|60. Become a foster parent||In Progress|
|61. Open bank accounts for boys||In Progress|
|66. Start teaching my youngest french||In Progress|
|67. Blog once a week (average) Hmm, I am falling behind.||In Progress|
|76. Get a dog. This will be happening in May or June. Yeah!||In Progress|
|69. Create scrapbook for BB. I am working on this one too.||In Progress|
|68. Buy a new winter coat (one my size). Done||Completed on 03/27/2008|
|80. Go to the Opera||In Progress|
|93. Visit Portland on vacation||In Progress|
|74. Fix kids journal db||In Progress|
|81. Have an outdoor family vacation||In Progress|
|78. Get my Irish passport||In Progress|
|75. Fly both of my new kites||In Progress|
|70. Date my husband once a month||In Progress|
|77. Get a singing prayer bowl (in C/ root chakra)||In Progress|
|85. Pick up french again||In Progress|
|95. Write an email to a friend once a week||In Progress|
|87. Read a nonfiction book every month||In Progress|
|71. Donate excess yarn||In Progress|
|94. Work on family tree||In Progress|
|89. Register the birth of my sons in Ireland||In Progress|
|91. Start knitting again||In Progress|
|82. Learn 2 new Harold Arlen songs||In Progress|
|88. Read Reggio Emilia book||In Progress|
|92. Take a pottery class||In Progress|
|83. Mediate 3 times a week||In Progress|
|79. Go to 5 hockey games||In Progress|
|90. Start having something to do while watching tv||In Progress|
|72. Finish kids journal||In Progress|
|86. Post 10 books on BookMooch||In Progress|
|73. Finish scrapbook for LB||In Progress|
|84. Piano lessons||In Progress|
|96. Do certification exam 1 (If I am ever going back to work then I need to keep up.) Taken and Passed!||Completed on 03/25/2008|
|98. Do certification exam 3||In Progress|
|99. Do certification exam 4||In Progress|
|97. Do certification exam 2||In Progress|
|101. Write Java exam||In Progress|
|100. Learn Java||In Progress|
Monday, April 21, 2008
I have been working on my 101 things in 1001 days and I have made progress. I will be updating it soon. I have made good progress. I have been focusing on negative thoughts and feelings and it has been going well. It is amazing how much we focus on the negative. We meaning me. How much venting is healthy? Why are so many interactions with other complaints? Hmm, is that a complaint? Oh sh-t, that was definitely a complaint. I guess I am still a work in progress.
I am letting my oldest watch TV since he is sick. I have such mixed feelings about the TV. I like the fact that he is not looking to me to entertain him, but I wish he didn't like it so much. I hear LB waking up. Go to run.
Friday, March 21, 2008
I have not been around as much lately. I have been reading "A New Earth" by Tolle. It has been consuming me and I have been doing the Oprah book club as well and watching it on ITunes. It has really struck a cord with me and makes a lot of sense on a gut level. A very short summary goes like this.
We are not our thoughts. We are the awareness of our thoughts. Our ego tries to run the show and keeps a constant stream of crap going through our heads. The stuff is all about our past or our future. We do not experience the "Now". By living in the present moment, which is actually all that there really is, you can experience peace. You have to feel your vital aliveness and that of everything around you in order to stay present. Pay attention to your breathing and feel yourself in the moment. When you have the negative emotions you have to accept them and not react against them. Every moment must be faced with either enthusiasm, enjoyment or at least acceptance. Resisting the present moment just feeds the ego. This is not to say that you have to stay where you are, but you need to accept what "is" before you can look to change.
I have been trying this and it is life changing. I hope that it helps you too.
I heard about a great birthday idea to replace the or.gy of gift giving that usually happens. There is this website Echoage that has a great idea. You get people to give to the website and instead of lots of gifts, your kid gets a check for half the amount and the other half goes to the charity of your hoice. It teaches kids the joy of giving and they might actual buy something that they really want with the money. The only problem that I see is that you have to get email addresses from people to invite them to the party. It is the way I am going for my next kid's birthday.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
This post is about my total lack of understanding about the celebration of this holiday for small children. My 2 yr old is in school 3 mornings a week. I got an email about Valentine's day and was sent a list of the names of the kids in his class. I thought, "You cannot be serious, they are 2?" But I was wrong, yes, my 2 year old got many a Valentine, with gift of pencils and small pads of paper, oh and candy. I don't want to seem ungrateful, but WTF! Personally I see it as a waste of paper and time. Since my son cannot have milk, most of the candy was not available for him. He was not that interested in the pencils. I admit that he did do some art in one of the pads. Am I scrooge or do others think 2 is too young for this? This is just a make work project for the parents. Now I did send a treat of carrot muffins for the class to share, but individual gifts? No thanks. I will wait until my son is old enough to get the idea and participate in the gift giving.
Monday, February 11, 2008
I have made quite a bit of progress. Yeah me!
01 Make this list √
02 Do a monthly list evaluation (1/34)
03 Clean the inside of my car (1/30)
04 Drive 5 km/h slower to reduce emissions. Started this. Sorry for those of you who are behind me.
05 Do work for a charity
06 Write to my foster child in Africa
07 Write to my foster child in SA
Family / Personal
08 Ask directly for what I want
09 Believe, think, talk and act positively I have tried this.
10 Decide what to do with my frozen embryos
11 Get closure on evil Uncle K
12 Have a family outing once a month (1/34)
13 Have more contact with my oldest sister
14 Have my mother over once a month
15 Make birthday dr appointments for boys
16 Plan fun things to do in the summer
17 Say “Please” more
18 Update my medical alert bracelet
19 Wear makeup everyday for 2 weeks
Health and Fitness
20 Buy a new weight scale I have decided against this. The one that we have is consistent, even if it is 5 lbs off.
21 Do months breast exam
22 Do more yoga (2x week)
23 Drink more water I am trying!
24 Get a massage once a month (2/34) YES!
25 Get my eyebrows done 3x (1/3)
26 Go a week without sugar
27 Go to bed before 11 at least 4x a week
28 Monthly massage Duplicate here. Changing this to ?
29 Reorganize my weekly schedule
30 Try pilates
31 Work on posture (stretch for 5 min every day) Not doing great on this one.
Food / House
32 Bake once a week (4x so far)
33 Create my own cookbook of things we like to eat.
34 Eat more organic foods
35 Clean kitchen before bed 5x a week Hmm, well, I am close on this one.
36 Clean out 3 kitchen cupboards
37 Do a clothing purge I tried on every blouse that I own and got rid of quite a few. Pants are next.
38 Do more gardening
39 Finish configuring new laptop . Done!
40 Follow cleaning schedule
41 Get dataloc for my laptop
42 Get pda connected to new laptop
43 Get rid of old VCR tapes
44 Go back on cash only for a month
45 Learn how to bake the hearty bread that I like to eat
46 Paint deck
47 Patch holes in family room wall. Started. Need to be sanded, primed and painted.
48 Purge desk
49 Purge furnace room
50 Put up whiteboard
51 Rearrange laundry room
52 Replace downstairs bathroom fan
53 Replace downstairs toilet
54 Replace Master bathroom fan
55 Replace Master toilet
56 Replace toilets
57 Replace weatherstripping on front and side door
58 Stop using plastic grocery bags
59 Touch up paint in hallway
60 Become a foster parent
61 Open bank accounts for boys
62 Potty train LB
63 Read book on parenting boys
64 Read book on praising boys
65 Sign up kids for swimming
66 Start teaching my youngest french
67 Blog once a week (average) I am on track for this one.
68 Buy a new winter coat (one my size). Done
69 Create scrapbook for BB
70 Date my husband once a month
71 Donate excess yarn
72 Finish kids journal
73 Finish scrapbook for LB
74 Fix kids journal db
75 Fly both of my new kites
76 Get a dog
77 Get a singing prayer bowl (in C/ root chakra)
78 Get my Irish passport
79 Go to 5 hockey games
80 Go to the Opera
81 Have an outdoor family vacation
82 Learn 2 new Harold Arlen songs
83 Mediate 3 times a week
84 Piano lessons
85 Pick up french again
86 Post 10 books on BookMooch
87 Read a nonfiction book every month
88 Read Reggio Emilia book
89 Register the birth of my sons in Ireland
90 Start having something to do while watching tv
91 Start knitting again
92 Take a pottery class
93 Visit Portland on vacation
94 Work on family tree
95 Write an email to a friend once a week
96 Do certification exam 1 (If I am ever going back to work then I need to keep up.) Taken and Passed!
97 Do certification exam 2
98 Do certification exam 3
99 Do certification exam 4
100 Learn Java
101 Write Java exam
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Of course, I cannot claim to be free from all racial stereotypes. I have to admit that I have chuckled over jokes about Asian drivers, oh and H.ondas too. I do live in an area of town where 30% of the population is Asian, many first generation. I moved here knowing that and I can't say that I regret the lack of whiteness. Many stores around here have multi-lingual signs and Asian foods are available in the grocery stores. I like the food and the people. It is a good place to raise a family.
Update on the list coming soon.
Note: After thinking about this, I want to say that I was not trying to suggest all Americans are race obsessed. I think it is more just that racism is so strange. Of course, Canada has not had a Black Prime Minister. We have had a woman, Kim Campbell, but she lasted a very short time. Maybe, I didn't have a point.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
1 Liter or Quart of Organic Chicken Broth (This allows you to skip the boiling of bones, careful that it has no more than 750 mg of sodium or the soup might be too salty)
2 Medium Carrots
Pepper to taste
1 cup / 250 mg of red lentils (cook faster than green)
Add broth to large pot, add lentils and bring to boil. Add bayleaf and pepper. Grind or chop carrots (depending on how thick you like your soup). Wash and Chop Leek. Remove foam from soup. Add carrots and leeks. If you are not a fan of leeks, which taste like very mild onions only better, you can substitute an onion. But you will need to sauté onions until translucent before adding to soup. Stir occasionally. Allow to simmer for 1 to 1.5 hours or until carrots and lentils are tender.
Once simmering is done, I have been known to add leftover chicken/veggies from the fridge. I have also added curry spices too. This makes for a hearty soup. I hope that you enjoy this as much a I do.
Monday, January 07, 2008
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).
Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organising and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.
So here is my list. I reserve the right to change it. I will let you know what I have done or learned each month. I know that some of them will be hard to measure, but I will try.
|1 ||Make this list √|
|2 ||Do a monthly list evaluation (0/34) |
|3 ||Clean the inside of my car (1/30) |
|4 ||Drive 5 km/h slower to reduce emissions|
|5||Do work for a charity|
|6||Write to my foster child in Africa|
|7||Write to my foster child in SA|
Family / Personal
|8||Ask directly for what I want|
|9||Believe, think, talk and act positively|
|10||Decide what to do with my frozen embryos|
|11||Get closure on evil Uncle K|
|12||Have a family outing once a month|
|13||Have more contact with my oldest sister|
|14||Have my mother over once a month|
|15||Make birthday dr appointments for boys |
|16||Plan fun things to do in the summer|
|17||Say “Please” more|
|18||Update my medical alert bracelet|
|19||Wear makeup everyday for 2 weeks|
Health and Fitness
|20||Buy a new weight scale|
|21||Do months breast exam|
|22||Do more yoga (2x week)|
|23||Drink more water|
|24||Get a massage once a month|
|25||Get my eyebrows done 3x|
|26||Go a week without sugar|
|27||Go to bed before 11 at least 4x a week|
|29||Reorganize my weekly schedule|
|31||Work on posture (stretch for 5 min every day)|
Food / House
|32||Bake once a week|
|33||Create my own cookbook of things we like to eat.|
|34||Eat more organic foods|
|35||Clean kitchen before bed 5x a week|
|36||Clean out 3 kitchen cupboards|
|37||Do a clothing purge|
|38||Do more gardening|
|39||Finish configuring new laptop|
|40||Follow cleaning schedule|
|41||Get dataloc for my laptop|
|42||Get pda connected to new laptop|
|43||Get rid of old VCR tapes|
|44||Go back on cash only for a month|
|45||Learn how to bake the hearty bread that I like to eat|
|47||Patch holes in family room wall|
|49||Purge furnace room|
|50||Put up whiteboard|
|51||Rearrange laundry room|
|52||Replace downstairs bathroom fan|
|53||Replace downstairs toilet|
|54||Replace Master bathroom fan|
|55||Replace Master toilet|
|57||Replace weatherstripping on front and side door|
|58||Stop using plastic grocery bags|
|59||Touch up paint in hallway|
|60||Become a foster parent|
|61||Open bank accounts for boys|
|62||Potty train LB|
|63||Read book on parenting boys|
|64||Read book on praising boys|
|65||Sign up kids for swimming|
|66||Start teaching my youngest french|
|67||Blog once a week (average)|
|68||Buy a new winter coat (one my size)|
|69||Create scrapbook for BB|
|70||Date my husband once a month|
|71||Donate excess yarn|
|72||Finish kids journal|
|73||Finish scrapbook for LB|
|74||Fix kids journal db|
|75||Fly both of my new kites|
|76||Get a dog|
|77||Get a singing prayer bowl (in C/ root chakra)|
|78||Get my Irish passport|
|79||Go to 5 hockey games|
|80||Go to the Opera|
|81||Have an outdoor family vacation|
|82||Learn 2 new Harold Arlen songs|
|83||Mediate 3 times a week|
|85||Pick up french again|
|86||Post 10 books on BookMooch|
|87||Read a nonfiction book every month|
|88||Read Reggio Emilia book|
|89||Register the birth of my sons in Ireland|
|90||Start having something to do while watching tv|
|91||Start knitting again|
|92||Take a pottery class|
|93||Visit Portland on vacation|
|94||Work on family tree|
|95||Write an email to a friend once a week|
|96||Do certification exam 1 (If I am ever going back to work then I need to keep up.)|
|97||Do certification exam 2|
|98||Do certification exam 3|
|99||Do certification exam 4|
|101||Write Java exam|