Thursday, June 14, 2007

Back from Hiding

Well, as you may have noticed I have not been around for a while. I finally had a colonoscopy and gastroscopy. I had two polyps removed and now I am waiting to see if, well, you know. The Dr thought everything went fine. He thinks something might be pushing against my stomach. I am going for a CT on Monday. I am scared shitless. I know something is wrong. I can feel it. Now a days you get demerol and valium before the colonoscopy (drugs can be your friend), but there was something in there that hurt even through the meds and that is not normal.

I have been focusing lately on not being busy for the sake of being busy. So often we validate ourselves based on how busy we are. I am refocusing on trying to appreciate the little things.

My youngest is such a joy these days. He is working on speaking and has the biggest smile you can imagine. I am so lucky in so many ways. I just have to hope that my luck holds!