I had an AHA moment today.
Today I was standing in the shower having some negative thoughts about something that I did in the past that embarrassed me and suddenly I understood something new. I have been reading "A New Earth" and it talks about the pain body and how it likes to feed on negative experiences. I realized that those embarrassing actions were done by my pain body looking to create the negativity that it feeds on. "I" did not do those things. I, of course, am responsible for my actions. The "why" I did those things is because my ego needed to act that way. I can let go of those things because it is futile to remember the past and the "why" is answered.
I am working on accepting the present moment, but I am still identifying with my thoughts and feelings. It is hard to let go and live in the present. At least, right now it is.
Any suggestions?
3 comments:
thanks for your comment on my poem~and i totally understand what you are talking about...i have so many things from my past (even recently)that make me cringe, but then i think all of what we have done adds up to who we are now and we need to accept those things and who we are now and make positive plans for who we will become then try to let it all go...
I realize I'm behind the game on this post...but it caught me. Just as I was jumping from blog to blog from another blog...
At any rate, I had to comment because I don't know why I thought I was so special, but I seriously thought I was the only one who got tied up in the anxiety of past choices whilst showering. Thanks for posting so as to free me!
Hey, are you sure that wasn't ME in the shower? anyhoo... I just wanted to say that I get this! I am Miss Negative (I was before I was declared "barren" at the age of 36, so you can imagine how it went after that!) Anyway, I've got to give myself a break all the time! I hope you do too. I don't always give myself a break, but then later, I give myself a break for not giving myself a break. You can see where this is going!
The actions are the key.
My recent action was a 55 mile bike ride! What???? In one day? It was something else. Anyway, good work and I am proud of you! Keep showering!
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